TIK TOK ON THE CLOCK

Not more than two weeks for the much dreaded "board exams" and here I am writing a blog. I thought I will put it off till my exams are over,  but you know how it is. Everybody around me is counting down on when the exams are starting and me, I am counting down for when the exams will end. It has gotten really frustrating towards the end, we have had endless exams and more and more and still more revision so at this point it feels like "get it over with already" but I am telling myself, "Hang in there. You have passed several months, 34 days (as of today) is nothing".

My thoughts  constantly trail off to what I will do in the holidays and how I will spend those most fantasized three months. I have dreamt about my 10th holidays since my ninth grade, I thought "Wow, when I finish my 10th I will have holidays for a whole three months!". But it never struck me that I will first have to finish 10th before I had the holidays. 

Now what I am really surrounded by is books and sample papers and lots and lots of tips and advice (some of which are really helpful) but what I am mostly hearing is "10th is very easy. You will definitely ace it." This I get mostly from seniors. Outside I am smiling and nodding my head but inside I am thinking "Easy for you to say, but I am the one writing it". But deep down I also know that I am going to be saying the same thing to my juniors the next year.

Anyway, we all got our hall tickets last week and we were given instructions on how to write our roll number and answer the questions. I have always looked up to the 10th graders and exclaimed, "WOW, they are writing their boards!" and it has always surprisingly felt far away, but now that it is only two weeks away, I feel a little sick in the stomach. One part of me is saying, "If so many people can do it, then so can you", but another part of me goes, "Woah, this is way too scary!" But I guess we will all have to wait and watch!!!